RIDE IT OUT… WRITE IT DOWN… POST! POST! POST!

We never know how NC is going to affect us minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day, month to month, year to year. There is such a range of emotions that blow through our minds.
One minute we feel strong and victorious, the next like a shattered soul. This is an addiction. I am treating the physical effects as if were an alcoholic or drug addict. It hurts.
Physically hurts.
I am reading on this forum 24/7. I keep a journal on my iPhone. I write it all down. What I’m finding in my writing is my NARC was not very kind. Oh, sure. He was so loving, charming, humorous, engaging, involved, available and constant. (In the Beginning)
But, that was the masked man in the beginning. Our beginning lasted 2 years. But, as always with the NARC, the mask comes off. And IT REALLY CAME OFF…. Woah!
So, when I get in the low spots during the day, I’ve started writing it all down.
I know the feeling of breaking NC can be RIDDEN OUT…. I am committed to getting myself back. I spent 3-1/2 years living HIS life. Focused on HIM, HIM, HIM….

NO MORE!!! We need to get back to OURSELVES!!!!

RIDE IT OUT & WRITE IT DOWN…
FreeMe