Thoughts of him
Thoughts of him
I don't post here often but I always read and gain strength from other members posts. They are all so similar..like I had written each one myself. He is still blocked. 9 months now of NC and for the most part it's all good. Then thoughts of him keep invading and immediately I try to force them out by telling myself that even if I did contact him or him me,
would I feel secure with him ever again could I trust him ever again and the answer to both is no. Yet still that does not change the fact that I made this decision and this is the price that I am paying for it. Sometimes the price just seems too high. Am I really worth all that ? Is my pride and my ego so great that I gave up the only person that I ever truly loved ?
Yes I guess it is. I know how he treated me and it was anything but good and I did what any self respecting person would have done. Yet still sometimes, that price seems to high. I know that had he truly cared it would not have come to this. That's the hard part. The fact that he never did really even care. I almost broke NC but didn't. Because I know deep down, there is no point. Accepting all this is a real bitch.
It's called INFLATION.. As
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