I will NOT blame myself....

I often read post where "victims" of Ns blame themselves for the demise of the relationship. I will not allow myself to blame myself for HIS sickness, which existed long before I entered his life & will be present long after I'm gone. I know that I honestly gave him & the relationship everything I had and then some. Did I behave badly at times? Yes, I did but it was either to defend myself or protect myself from more mistreatment. His bad behavior brought out a nasty side of me that I never wanted to emerge. I reacted normally to his abnormal behavior. I will never regret the way I reacted to him. It did not cause the ending. His illness did.