Cried during my workout today...help :(
Cried during my workout today...help :(
I cried during my workout today. I’ve been NC for six weeks. He hasn’t attempted to contact me in anyway and this makes me feel worse. I feel like if he attempted, that it would be closure of some kind for me to continue my NC and move on. Stupid I know, but that’s what it would be for me. I don’t know if he’s with another woman or women…he most likely is and to me, it doesn’t matter. I guess I just starting crying because I’m a good person and because towards the end, he started telling me about how this woman or that girl is hot and built “the way he likes”. He started saying things like, “that girl’s is more on my level looks wise, but all the other girls I’ve been with haven’t really been. They were just there for the time.” This hurt me! I was on my elliptical telling myself that his opinion means nothing…I shouldn’t feel bad about my curves…but I still kept crying. He’s made me feel bad about my body, because the women he was pointing out (he provided pictures…the a$$hole), were all built stick thin or were wearing bikinis, dressed like club girls. They were party type girls wearing bikini’s and pool parties. I’m built like a Marilyn Monroe or Jennifer Lopez….a completely different body type.
How sick is it that I actually felt like if I was thinner or built like those girls, that none of this would've happened to me?! I know deep down this isn't true though...he's screwed over super model looking girls...all women/girls are objects for him to receive gratification from. I felt and feel awful. Why would he say those things to me…why would he do this? Once again, I’m crying and want so badly for karma to come around and bite him in the ass, because he deserves that and more.
TovaBella
cried during workout
Tova
Thank you Michele115
Tovabella
sorry for my rant in post below everyone
Hello Ifinallygotit
tovabella
Hello Ifinallygotit!
yes not good taste
tovabella
Hello Ifinallygotit :)
Tovabella
Sara-Smile
tovabella - body types
Bodytypes-Ifinallygotit
Make yourself a CD......
Sara-Smile
great idea, sara-smile!
I don't even think I was the right GENDER for him(!!!)
Susan32
She outdid me in the tomboy department...
He wants you to think this
Findmeagain, thanks for cheering me up :)
His devaluation of you is irrational.
Carol24
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carol24
Thanks stayingstrong