Happiness. Grateful.

I am writing this post for everyone who has helped me along, and everyone who is feeling desperate and like it is never going to work out or be okay.

I come here a lot - to heal. I express my worries and fears.
I get support. I give support.

I feel that it is important that I share that today I had a lot of joy - a lot of happiness.

The horrible weight does lift. I enjoyed my life today, and it didn't take very much effort to do so. For a long time I have nursed myself through the days. Not today. Today, even when confronted with meddling non-sense from the EXNH-Psychopath, I went about my day with joy. That icky heightened feeling that I get from contact - today with his MOTHER of all people - I took that energy and went right outside and worked/played in my garden and moved my body in the sunshine and just had a dandy time. I said hello to my wonderful neighbor and chatted with her for a long time. It was just a lovely lovely day.

I fully appreciated being FREE of the EXNH-Psychopath.
The cost of having him in my past did not weigh on me.
I just embraced the joy.

I have been working hard to have this happen.
Many of you have contributed to that directly via posts, and private messages, and even a lovely phone call.
I am grateful.

Good News / Bad News

The bad news is that I had to extricate myself from the grasp of the EXNH-Psychopath.

The good news is that I have learned a ton about myself and the world and the people in it, and hopefully, I will have a life mostly free of the nonsense of these Narcissistic Psychopathic people who suck the joy and energy and productivity and spark out of empathetic people like us.
I am truly grateful for that education. Really. Because the psychopathic world has been working on me my whole life to suck out the wonderfulness.
I have plenty wonderfulness left and I am going to nurture it, and enjoy it, and share it.
I will look for it in others, and surround myself with those people.

If you feel desperate, PLEASE, just stay on the path. One foot in front of the other. Do what you need in order to get through the day.

If you are in the tunnel, please have faith that there is a light at the end of it.
I was in the tunnel for a very long time, and I am OUT.
You will get out of the tunnel too, and into the sunlight.

Really.

Now, it isn't all wrapped up in a bow for me. I have plenty of work to do.
But today was a very good day. And I am grateful.