It truly does get better......

Though I'd check in on all of you. I hope everyone is doing well. I felt like I needed to sahe this little story with you.........

Just a few short 26 weeks ago (December 11. 2011 to be exact) I really believed I was dying. The pain was horrible and I thought if someone could die of a broken heart it'd be me.

I change my whole routine to avoid running into him. I knew if I saw him I'd melt. My heart would stop beating. I'd go back for more abuse. I'd fall in love with hin again just to be abused some more. I knew that if I saw him I'd break. I'd be out of commission for days. I wouldn't be there for my kids, I'd skip work, I'd never get out of bed. So I avoided him. I went NC. Did several one on ones with Goldie. Read everything I could get my hands on. Joined the support call. Made many friends here on this forum. Friends like I have never had before.

Fast forward to June 18, 2012. I was at Walmart picking up a prescription for my son and who do I see out of the corner of my eye??? The narc. I just went about my business at the pharmacy. No eye contact, no verbal exchange, no skip of my heart beat, no tears, no hole in my stomach, and I did not die.

He, though, ran away and ran fast. I was not effected at the time and I am still not effected now. Nothing. Complete indifference, he was a stranger and nothing more.

It works if you work it. You MUST do the work no one can do it for you. When you have had enough you will do something about it and believe me your life will change dramatically.

I am very grateful for this site, the steps, Lisa, Goldie, all the MODS, and the new friends I have made. I did the work and it worked for me.

Thank you to all of you! You have literally saved my life. Don't give up, keep at it. Like I said "IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT"

With gratitude
movingforwardnow (and always)