GOODBYE AND THANK YOU

Goodbye Marc the Narc,

I have reached a point of no return. You took every part of me,and gave nothing in return. You have drained me of any self confidence, any self esteem and even reduced me to believing sometimes I was better off dead, than having to face the deep feelings of complete and utter worthlessness.

You have bled me dry of any life and any soul. I lost myself because of you.
I don't want to love you or need you anymore, I want to move on into the light away from your evil and darkness.

After just a short time away from you I have started to get clarity and now I can see you for the real monster you are. You are now so obvious to me that its almost like someone turned the spotlight onto you and neon arrows are flashing "SELFISH, MANIPULATIVE BAST**D NARC!"

I actually thank you for doing the really nasty horrible things you did to me otherwise I may have been blinded and would have doubt myself a lot longer.

Thank you for saying "THANX" when I said I loved you.....that shows me what an egotistical ass you are who loves to be adored.

Thank you for critising me and making me the butt of your jokes......that shows me that you were actually jealous of me, and how bad you really feel about yourself.

Thank you for leaving me pregnant and to deal with the miscarriages twice......I now know I have the strength to survive anything on my own, and certainly don't need you and never did. I also now know what a selfish cowardly git you really are.

Thank you for keep coming back to me......I now know I have something that you want and find difficult to live without.....but guess what asshole??....you are never getting it again!Dream on !!!

Thank you for busting my lip open on holiday......I now know you are an even bigger coward for hitting a woman and a deranged individual. I now remember the sheer hate in your eyes (for yourself NOT ME )I dont forgive you, I said I did because I was scared to let go of the fantasy you had created in my head.I feel nothing but pity for you crazy bast**d!

Thank you for sleeping with other women during our break-ups.......Now I can see what a promiscuous SOB you are who needs constant sexual validation! A constant ego stroke!

Thank you for telling me "I LOVE YOU , I LOVE YOU NOT" throughout our time together.......I now know you dont know what love is. You are in capable of it!

Thank you for letting me give give give unconditionally to you with nothing in return.........I now know I have a huge heart and I am capable of unconditional love, and I know some day someone will value that in me and love me unconditionally back!

Thank you for all the lies, the half truths and the ambiguity, ........I now know to trust my gut instinct, deep down every time I knew the truth but wouldn't trust my gut.....but I certainly do now.

Thank you for being you.....You have taught me what I DONT WANT!

Thank you for calling off our engagement.......I now thank god I didnt marry you!

Thank you for leaving me ........ I can now escape the darkness and find the light !

Thank you for every last cruel and evil thing you did....YOU OPENED MY EYES AND HAVE MADE ME STRONGER !!!

AND JUST FOR YOU IMFORMATION YOU CRAZY MOTHER F**KER, IF I EVER HAVE THE MISFORTUNE OF HEARING YOU SAY "I WANT YOU BACK"......I WILL ONLY HAVE ONE THING TO SAY TO THAT......

"Thanks, but no thanks ASSHOLE. I am not the same person, I have nothing more to give to you, I know that you have absolutely NOTHING that I want. Go and crawl back under your stone from where you came!!."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4HZxBU0Px8

"Thank You"

[Verse 1:]
The fights, those nights
I tried to pretend it don't hurt
The way, I prayed
Someday that you would love me
Really, completely
Just how I wanted it to be
But no, so wrong
Can't believe I stayed with you so long

[B-Chorus:]
You hit, you spit, you split, ever-y bit of me, yeah
You stole, you broke, you're cold
You're such a joke to me, yeah

[Chorus:]
For every last bruise you gave me
For every time I sat in tears
For the million ways you hurt me
I just wanna tell you this
You broke my world, made me strong
Thank you
Messed up my dreams, made me strong
Thank you

[Verse 2:]
My head, near dead
Just the way you wanted it
My soul, stone cold
Cos I was under you're control
So young, so dumb
Knew just how to make me succumb
But I understand
To make yourself feel like a man

[B-Chorus:]
You hit, you spit, you split, ever-y bit of me, yeah
You stole, you broke, you're cold
You're such a joke to me, yeah

[Chorus:]
For every last bruise you gave me
For every time I sat in tears
For the million ways you hurt me
I just wanna tell you this
You broke my world, made me strong
Thank you
Messed up my dreams, made me strong
Thank you

[Middle eight:]
You coulda had it all babe
It coulda been so right
I woulda given you everything
Morning through night
Yeah, you taught me some lessons
Those are my blessings
That won't happen again
THANK YOU !