Narcotine & nicotine

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#1 Apr 13 - 8AM
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Narcotine & nicotine

I cannot believe this. I have given up smoking after 30 years.

I have always identified as a smoker, like it was part of my personality. I practically chain smoked throughout the narc fallout. And any time I felt uncomfortable or couldn't relate to people I would go and have a cigarette on my own. I do have an electronic inhaler for when I need it, but I have not had a cigarette in nearly a week. This is truly UNHEARD of for me. I have never tried to give up before. The only time I ever managed not to smoke was when I was in hospital. And even then I had one outside the building while I was still on my drip. Revolting but true.

I don't want anything to have that much power over me ever again. Narcotine or nicotine. I used to think I just liked smoking but actually I was probably punishing myself. I don't want to be dependent on anything. I have been NC for over a year, I'm really wondering if I can use the same determination to keep off the fags. I wonder also if this is purely coincidental or if subconsciously I want some control here and to rid myself of what's toxic? I'd be interested to hear any views on this and obviously also from anyone who's kicked the habit recently.

Apr 16 - 7AM
shock and awe.some
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Hallelujah Hollywood TTTH

Apr 16 - 7AM (Reply to #20)
talktothehand
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Shock & Awesome

Apr 16 - 8AM (Reply to #21)
shock and awe.some
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Ah...a tropical island

Apr 16 - 8AM (Reply to #22)
talktothehand
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S & A

Apr 15 - 5AM
spinning
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Talk, I am loving this

spinning

Apr 16 - 7AM (Reply to #18)
shock and awe.some
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Good for you spinning!

Apr 15 - 1PM (Reply to #17)
talktothehand
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Spinning

Apr 15 - 12AM
sick_of_being_s...
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Awwww man! Good for you!!!

Apr 15 - 4AM (Reply to #15)
talktothehand
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sickofbeingsick

Apr 13 - 10PM
Healingslowly_b...
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It's about 18 months since

Apr 14 - 3AM (Reply to #13)
Janie53
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Healingslowly

Apr 13 - 10AM
don'tlookback
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both highly addictive

Apr 13 - 9AM
Janie53
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Talk

Apr 16 - 7AM (Reply to #10)
shock and awe.some
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Love that quote Janie

Apr 13 - 8AM
AprilD
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No contact is the equivalent

Apr 13 - 9AM (Reply to #2)
talktothehand
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Thank you April

Apr 13 - 9AM (Reply to #3)
AprilD
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Awww, thank you! I am

Apr 13 - 9AM (Reply to #4)
PattiLCS
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I am smoking my way through

Apr 13 - 10AM (Reply to #5)
JCat
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Inspiring

Apr 13 - 11AM (Reply to #6)
talktothehand
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Jcat

Apr 13 - 12PM (Reply to #7)
AprilD
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Narc gone, nicotine gone =

Apr 14 - 4AM (Reply to #8)
thebigpayback
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this happened to me as well.