I choose ME

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#1 Apr 21 - 6AM
ItsFinallytime
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I choose ME

I look back at all the shit I took from you, all the abuse. The yelling, the raging, the screaming, the name calling, the distortion, the manipulation, the punishing, the blaming, the gaslighting, the making me wrong, the disappearing, the withholding, the projecting, the making stuff up that never even happened, the fucking silent treatment any time I broke one of your crazy, arbitrary rules that applied only to ME and I can’t believe I put up with that shit for a single minute, never mind for well over 6 years. I just finished reading my own journal entries from the last 3 years and I cannot believe the shit I put up with. The shit I allowed. It’s sad to me that I was so damaged myself that this is what I thought I deserved. But not anymore. I don’t deserve it. I never did and you are so not worth it. You’re a miserable, sick, twisted fuck who gets off on causing other people pain but your days of causing me pain are OVER. You are simply not worth the air-time anymore. Your reign of terror is done. You’re a joke. A sick, pathetic creature. I could not be happier that I made the decision to end it. That I didn’t allow you to decide. I decided. No you. I ended it. Not you. I did it. You didn’t get to discard me like a piece of trash. I chose me. I walked away. Quietly and with dignity. No screaming. No raging. Just gone. Because you are no longer worth it. But I am. You no longer matter. But I do. I took my power back and did not allow you to decide my life. I walked away. I did it. Me. Not you. I did it. For me. And when you called after the last silent treatment, I didn’t answer the phone and I didn’t return the call. And I never, ever will. That is my gift to myself. I never returned the call and I never will. I will never, ever, ever be on the other end of the phone – or anywhere else for you again. Ever. You tried to destroy me. Tried to destroy. ME. Me – who never did anything but love you and help you and was there for you and your kids. You tried to destroy me. And you FAILED. You could NOT destroy me. You could NOT. My days of being tied to a twisted, sadistic maggot are over. You failed. And you will never, ever, EVER have the chance to try again.

I choose me.

Jan 25 - 2PM
Lorelie123
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Great goodbye letter! Well

Nov 24 - 10PM
JLS
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Relief

Jun 14 - 7PM
Learningthehardway
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Love this letter....

May 13 - 10PM
Ready2heal
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I feel you

May 11 - 6AM
Janie53
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Itsfinallytime

Apr 22 - 11AM
spinning
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It's finally...

spinning

Apr 24 - 5AM (Reply to #4)
ItsFinallytime
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Thank you, Spinning!!! I'm

Apr 21 - 6AM
AllGiggles
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Oh one me thing FUCK HIM!

Apr 21 - 6AM
AllGiggles
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Let it all out. It feels good