shortway's story
shortway's story
So for the past 1.5years I have done so much for my narc.Let him live in my home when he didn't have a place,cooked for him,let him borrow money,helped him through pill addiction,always took care of him,everything..It started him one time calling me a B+++ early on.The sign was there.He told me he was going to show me that wasn't him.Yet right,fast forward to a year later..I was going away on business and all of a sudden he is "busy",not calling etc..I understand he was anxious because my ex lived in area where my business trip was..So I threw him a semi-bone...So I call him one night and he says"I'm on a "date"..Has nerve to tell me,I didn't believe him.So I said I'm coming up there.I went there and banged on the door.I could hear the tv and I heard a girl purposely laughing to be heard.I heard him say shhh...I know what I heard.He played it off as if it was the tv and he was trying to sleep..Then he came clean after a week..At this point he would yell,scream,at me if I contacted him,saying I asked you to 'back off a little"..Yeah ok..We would talk 24/7..Nice try N...So I left for my business trip..ripping him up about it..Do you beleive I gave him a chance after that night.BIGGEST MISTAKE GIRLS..not with a N...He ate it up..Turned it all around on me saying "he wouldn't forgive me for it""it will never be the same"..Is he for real?..So being I had a big heart,I said we could get over it,he wouldn't..He proceeded to belittle me,call me names,try to ruin my business trip..I was ordering room service because I was so upset in my hotel,I was even shaking in 90degree weather.The N completely ate up I was giving him a second chance..He said he would never apologize for calling me what he did..Why because the self-absorbed,selfish,N,couldn't apologize,couldnt look within himself..Now understand I was weak,self-esteem down because of the girl there..So I was taking all the shots from him..he asked me to let it go,when I did,he wouldn't let it go.It was this twisted game of control..The nicer you are to an N the worse they are to you!!!..I've tried many avenues,nothing will work with an N..Until I finaly said'He has to be kidding"..We've had problems and maybe I was to blame for bringing up my ex before I went..but..who could ever hurt someone further while they are down..So he is now in a "relationship"with that girl on FB..He says to me"Don't email me because I don't want her to get upset''..I finally emailed and said"You have nerve putting me through so much pain and you care if someone off the street gets upset..It is like a boxing match with a N..He will hit you,hit you,but one day the trick is to get the heck up when he is turned around and deliver him a Knock out blow THEN do the NC..Thats what I did,I served him with a pciture of the guy I'm seeing,saying at least he is goodlooking and I would never sell you out for him like you did me..I said"we are not friends",we are not acquaintances,i want nothing to do with you,unless you have some revelation(the weak part in me)..I have had access to their fb page,and I think it might be time to not watch anymore..I was so curious on who it was,now i know she is disgusting..But an N just wants someone to follow them,obey them,..But women we are not these women..We are strong women!They don't like that!!..We must get our power back!..And not give them the women they want..they tried turning us into "that woman"..Because of his cheating,I have been told I am bipolar,ugly,stupid,I've been belittled,he has even told me he reads my personal emails to his friends..He says I need help.yeah right!!Guess who's coming back???The REAL ME..The NC is hard..I had a few days under my belt,but had to empower myself one last time by sending the picture..now I will go full-force NC..NC is hard...I need your strength and words:0thanks...
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