Addiction

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#1 Mar 12 - 10PM
Sickofhim
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Addiction

I think what I realize now after one month NC is that I was not necessarily addicted to HIM but to the desire to attain the unattainable. I could not stop trying to get him to fall in love w me. The more he mistreated me, the harder I tried. Giving up felt like failure & rejection. I could not tolerate it so I kept going back for more bc I remained pathologically hopeful. In hindsight, what the hell was I fighting for? A cold, distant, self-absorbed asshole who doesn't understand the meaning of the word "love"

Apr 12 - 7AM
Lifegoeson2
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Boy does this...

Apr 13 - 8AM (Reply to #48)
gemofagirl
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I could have written this

Apr 12 - 11AM (Reply to #40)
Sickofhim
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More like the ultimate

Apr 13 - 5AM (Reply to #41)
tootsgee
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ewww SOH .. his response made

Apr 13 - 5AM (Reply to #42)
Sickofhim
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Tootsgee...

Apr 13 - 8AM (Reply to #45)
talktothehand
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Chimps

Apr 13 - 8AM (Reply to #46)
Laci423
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re: chimps

Apr 13 - 8AM (Reply to #47)
talktothehand
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Just wasn't into that

Apr 13 - 6AM (Reply to #43)
tootsgee
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ha ha ha ha !!! xx

Apr 13 - 6AM (Reply to #44)
Sickofhim
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THAT shut him the hell

Mar 15 - 6PM
NoMoreFreakBoy
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Hi SOH

Mar 17 - 7AM (Reply to #38)
onwithmylife
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no more freak boy

Mar 16 - 2AM (Reply to #36)
I wish
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My life

Mar 17 - 10AM (Reply to #37)
Sickofhim
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They are like a train wreck

Mar 15 - 7PM (Reply to #35)
NatalieEye
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Nomorefreakboy

Mar 15 - 6PM (Reply to #34)
Sickofhim
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Are u really asking ME this question??

Mar 15 - 7AM
onwithmylife
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sickofhim

Mar 15 - 5PM (Reply to #28)
Sickofhim
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They are mentally ill...which

Mar 15 - 5PM (Reply to #29)
talktothehand
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SOH

Mar 15 - 5PM (Reply to #30)
Sickofhim
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Sadly, pretty much none. I

Mar 15 - 5PM (Reply to #31)
talktothehand
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No

Mar 15 - 5PM (Reply to #32)
Sickofhim
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So totally sad, on so many

Mar 13 - 3PM
brinamarie
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"Pathologically hopeful" ..i

Mar 13 - 4PM (Reply to #26)
Sickofhim
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For me, he hadn't changed one

Mar 13 - 7AM
Breathe_Easy
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Wow

Mar 12 - 10PM
Jodie
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This reminds me of what

"Cry now because you lost him or cry later because you have him."

Mar 13 - 12AM (Reply to #21)
IncognitoBurrito
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Yeah

Mar 13 - 5AM (Reply to #23)
talktothehand
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SATC

Mar 13 - 12AM (Reply to #22)
tootsgee
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I never really understood why

Mar 12 - 10PM (Reply to #18)
Sickofhim
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Exactly. It became a huge