Hey everyone. I'm not having such a good day today. I've been doing so well. Then last night I had a vivid dream that I was back to the illusion phase with my narcissist.
He's got two daughters with a previous partner and I really cared for them during our 3 years together. I miss their presence.
I dreamt we were a family again. Then I woke up and felt such loss. That these little darlings have forgotten me. What hurts as well is his new supply, has a little girl and all I can picture is the 5 of them playing happy families.
I haven't seen them for two months, and I'm beginning to forget what he looks like. I'm not fussed about him, but I'm just so hurt of all the effort I put into the relationship including looking after his girls. It's hard to get my head around how someone can bring you into their daughters lives and then delete you , like you're nothing.
We used to have them shared custody, but the mother stopped him from seeing them for a while, and he now only has them every other weekend. I will never know why due to him feeding me BS , I just know she hates him more than anything.
These men are so cruel. They really don't care about what they do.
Any kind words would be kindly received