Big mistake
Big mistake
I think I made a huge mistake. After 1 month NC (after her D&D of me) I responded to a flurry of texts from the N. Long story short we ended up (gasp) sleeping together. I'm sure this wouldnt have happened had she not been drinking (though I have been sober throughout everything) Right after she seemed to be almost human again, almost like in the beginning when times were good and she seemed loving and caring. The next day she is back to her old tricks again, basically telling me she will have no part of any commitment and in so many words if I am to continue to be blessed with these little crumbs and having her in my life I will accept drunken sex and nothing else and then only when it is convenient for her. When I asked if that was the only thing she wanted me for, I could feel the N rage coming on! How dare I accuse her of being so shallow?! Though she more or less spelled it out for me! She "doesn't have much time" but she might be able to "hang out" with me occasionally or go on a date. WTF??? I feel like a whore. But maybe, just maybe, like I have read some of you say in other posts, breaking no contact can sometimes be good because it can reinforce what A-holes they really are and help you see their true colors. I know I am in a dangerous place, this is why I have come back here. Just when I was almost getting to feel like I was in a place where I could possibly feel a "tinsy weensy" bit less despondent and have a day with no tears. Go on, let me have it.
Thank you for sharing....
Reinforcement
Not a Mistake
Oh Rose my dear friend, I
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
Round 3
Well you most certainly are
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
She basically tells you all
contempt
You must write this letter.
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
B, you are so good!
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