Clarity

I hope someday I find the real thing.....Not an illusion full of holes.
Its been a painful journey. These last 4 months have been unstable at best but I keep getting up everyday and going to work, walking daily trying to eat a little bit better and become more aware of my presence on the earth.
I miss what I thought was "real" the N did a number on me...I like to call it "soul rape".
He stole my soul without me even having a clue it was happening. My N was handsome and charming like all the others and I was so blinded I could not see any of the truth. Now 4 months out...I am learning about myself and why I attract these types of men....
Its on me to take care of myself and not give myself away to a man hoping they are going to fix me or save me...
I've got to do that work....
Moments of clarity are getting closer together as the spinning continues to fade....
Hang in there everyone...Its almost the weekend..
xo
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