dark night of the soul: someone please help and please tell me that there is life after this pain?!
dark night of the soul: someone please help and please tell me that there is life after this pain?!
Please tell me that after narcissism there is life again.
Please can someone tell me that you get through the harrowing shit and come out a new and happier person.
A few nights ago i looked at some old pictures of msyelf.
I certainly was in and out of narcissistic relationships and had go-ten pretty low at times...
But I never knew in those low times what a real dark night of the soul felt like..
In this aftermath I find myself now.. its so ugly and dark.
I feel so lonely and helpless at times. even though I am stronger and have so much more power than when he was here.. Im still fighting to mend my life and the disaster that he has left me in..
My sons health is poor and I am still concned that he has worms . He has terrible trouble with his tummy. He is angry and has tantrums and its incredibly hard sometimes. his sleep is fitful and he wont eat the food I want him too.
Im getting stronger I think but the house, the bills, the stress. I got told at work that although they understand what I am going through with the divorce etc, that I have to pull my finegr out.. I make sloppy mistakes on my admin.. im not concentrating properly and I support vulnerable people so I have to get my head out of this mash up!!!
We also have bed bugs or fleas not sure which.. just another vile thing to stop me form concentrating on healing cos im spending money and effort on it that I should be dedicating on healing myself and to my son.. its like one thing after another since I met the narc.. since he left too. the house feels filled with bad energy. all the illness and ill health and stress and unhappiness feels 'stuck' here.. I feel stuck here even though I know that i can make changes..
I feel that im being made powerless by the residual pain left from being put on a pedostaol to being divalued and discarded... he was a sqautter, he worked in a grocery store, and in just over an year I met him, got pregnant, married him and bought a house with him.. to which he left his job, became a student (a course he never finished) wracked up 20,000 - 30,000 credit of my back (cos he wouldn't have got any credit before, getting a mortgage with him was only based on the deposit I put down and will now loose) and now he lives off his new woman.. and serves me still further contempt in any dealings we have over our son...
Please somebody tell me that we get through it. I tell others all the time in my work, in my friendhsips.. 'you will get through this'.... I tell myself that I will. but sometimes I wonder if I even believe msyelf???!!!
Its hidoeus. Im lonely and fed up and I need something good to happen to me.. soon! I want to postive think.. but why does the aftermath continually drain me and stop me from healing?
Why? please help if you can? x
Q
You WILL get through this...
Qing, I will personally
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God sometimes removes a person from your life for your protection. Don't run after them.
Dear Mystwoman. thank you for
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