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I did not go to work today. I have been getting worse as the days go by.
After he contacted my son I was furious, after he sent me a message two days ago ( my own words), he couldnt even come up with anything of his own ( so empty)....the only word I have left is cruel.
Because I have vowed to just ignore and keep N/C I feel helpless.
I feel stuck in my pain once again.
I ask myself if I will ever make it out of this camp..will I ever be free of his sickness. I am torn between calling the police and just waiting out the storm. I dont want him to know I am getting this stuff.
I reached out to my supposed bf and said, please I really need you now as I was really struggling. I got a reply 4 hours later that she would call today...I am so hurt. I keep all of this to myself I carry it and I really needed support last night. No one.
I have no family and with my PTSD i realized that my friends cannot cope. So I keep it to myself.
I am worried for what little sanity I have left and I am worried that his is not done breaking me down. I feel trapped. I feel helpless.
Somehow I always knew he hated me...I feel it like venom with every breath I take.
So completely lost.
truth...
Truth, it sounds like you
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Thanks ladies
I won't be satisfied till HE'S completely nuts...
I won't be satisfied till HE'S completely nuts...
Tonight
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Truth
Sadists
T to T, I know you can take
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Yep, I think it's a full
I am sorry, True. You must