Feel defeated

I am trying so hard. I feel low at the moment. I have a lot happening in my life right now that is good but I still have that hole of missing him so much.

Sometimes I catch myself daydreaming memories of him. When he was sweet. And it makes me feel like he is sweet but just couldn't with me. I feel like it is just that I'm not attractive enough or he didn't click with me enough or I'm too young for him and he has no need to talk to me now because he has someone else, not even a kind word, that he would think I'm strange for wanting it.

I think about him constantly and miss him. I hurt so much. I have been on dates since but haven't gotten close to another man and don't have the desire to.

I feel helpless even with all the work I am trying to do to make myself feel better, getting support, etc. It all seems to come back to that thought that I'm just not good enough for him and he used me or liked me but didn't want me long term, more of a fling before he got serious with someone else and now can't have anything to do with me because of her.

I know you have all helped me so much but I don't know what to do right now with feeling this. I read over and over what everyone has said to help me and I still feel lost inside at the moment.

I feel like I am a bad person for him to not want me in his life, not that he has said that, he has just ignored me.