feeling powerless

I found this book 'the human magnet syndrome' and the more i read, the more i realize i am a codependent. I am still stuck in this relationship, as you can see from my previous posts. I have had my 'light bulb' moment lately regarding this disorder, but i wonder if I will ever have the strength to actually leave. I live abroad with 2 young children, I dont drive. Money arrangements: I am not at work, but he works and pays the mortgage of he house that is in both of our names. so i feel so stuck.
Also, he is so lazy. I do everything for him around the house. (only stopped ironing recently) he has moved to the loft, where he stays most of the day, but sleeps on the couch downstairs. He hasnt spoken to me for over a month now. I dont want to engage with him, saying sorry or anything,(a lie of course) as I dont want to waste my energy, now more than ever, as i know what is going on.. I feel so powerless.