Feeling sorry for myself
Feeling sorry for myself
I've been NC for just over week, and I'd been doing pretty good. When I found this site and realized that I was manipulated and that HE was the crazy one... it made me feel better. The more I read everyone's posts and stories and saw all the similarities, I felt like I had this instant support network (thank you all btw). Then today... it hit me. I'm just in this down mood. I know I shouldn't look, but I noticed exN unhid his match profile so I could tell he was trolling for new prey. Then he hid it again... I felt like without being able to see if he was "online" that I lost MY supply! Ugh...pathetic. And even though my head knows without a doubt he is a complete scumbag loser... I scratch my head thinking, "How did it go from BLISS to HELL overnight? How did I let myself, who wasn't even all that interested in him in the beginning, become sooo wrapped up in him? I knew he had cheated on his wife with multiple people... how could I be so stupid to think he wouldn't do that to me?
So, to add insult to injury. My ex-husband tells me tonight that he is going to introduce someone (his new gfriend) to our kid this weekend. He has never introduced anyone to her. I"m ok with him doing that... but I feel like a total loser that I AM ALL DEPRESSED OVER THE DEMISE OF MY RELATIONSHIP TO A F'D UP, ANGRY, IMMATURE, LYING, CHEATING, MANIPULATIVE PIECE OF SHIT... and my ex (who I am completely over btw) is all happy and in that lovey dovey new phase with someone. I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I guess I'm entitled to that... Thanks for listening.
FUMB
FUMB
FUMB, you are asking yourself some
spinning
the pity party
Helldweller
Helldweller....
Yes....
We have all had these
You're entitled
Thank you :) That is good
I just joined the party today