Feeling today

Courtney, Everything you are feeling is REAL and NORMAL. You are not deranged. You are not crazy. You have been abused. Like Barbara mentioned, this is not about love. He is just seeking Narcissistic Supply (Attention). Like a vampire, it is what keeps him "puffed up." I don't know what this "18 month thing is with respect to getting over???" I was married for 23 years, and breaking up a family comes along with a lot of baggage, aside from the fact of peeling back the onion and taking a long hard look at myself, for being with a guy like this. Typically, women who go for these kind of guys (or vice versa) have family members with narcissistic traits, it's like a scent we must give off (like women having periods at the same time once they are around each other for awhile). I certainly wasn't looking for this "type" of guy. I had no clue. He was the dream man, the one that any woman would want for a husband, did and said all the right things----UNTIL... Like you, I was devastated and nearly destroyed, and yes, I wanted justice done to him, even though I am a loving and very caring personality, but that too will go away. Through my therapy, I did come to a place where I was able to forgive him in my heart. The first thing you have to do is block him from all your email accounts. And if he gets through, don't open them up, that is the bait. They say that even though the N is long gone, the ghost of him still remains for a long time. This is the psychology from the ramifications of loving a narcissist. I not only went to therapy, but I took care of myself by learning everything I needed to know about this dreadful disorder (for my healing), I read a lot of self-help books, I prayed---and I can't say enough about that, (it works!), I exercised, I had massages, and did everything to pamper myself mentally, physically, and spiritually. Today, I have been reacquainted with myself and while it took a long time, it was well worth it. One thing is that I was a "re-actor," he thrived on that. Today, when I hear things that he still says and does, which would have sent me off the deep before, I totally disregard it and let it all go, and it's no longer hard work making that decision. Believe me, you will get there.

Block the new email. DELETE the b.s. he sent - he's trolling for 'supply' NO CONTACT!! http://howtospotadangerousman.blogspot.com/2008/11/power-of-relapsing.html http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2009/04/14/pain-stinks-dont-go-through-it-nothing he's a liar and loser. Serenity Prayer for Pathological Relationships by Sandra Brown, MA Lord, help me to accept the pathology and the things in him and this relationship that I cannot change. To change the things I can in my own life that will help me leave, heal, and recover since he cannot change. And the wisdom to know the difference between who can change, who can never change and what I can do now for myself. AMEN ~~~~~~~~~~~~ CLICK HERE: Articles & information for Victims - Updated Daily "As soon as you feel that crazy sense of walking on eggshells, fending off N-rage, stop. Walk away." - Dr. M. Beck