Felt like I had to check

Ugh. I don't know if I did the right thing or not. It's been over a year of NC and I feel like I may have set myself back. Here's what I did:

Since Ex N got back from the middle east early this year, I noticed a lot of activity at first on our company's website but couldn't tie it directly to him. Then, a few weeks ago, activity dropped off here and it picked up in another part of the country where he had talked about moving to when his deployment was over. So, when I saw activity from that other state (far away from where I live), it made me feel much better. Much safer. Like I wouldn't have to keep looking over my shoulder everywhere I went wondering if i'd run into him. Like he was really gone. But, still I wasn't sure he moved...just really, really hoping. So yesterday, I realized the only way to know for sure would be to check his online dating profile to see where he listed his location. I knew the profile name because we met online. I hadn't checked that profile (didn't want to) the whole time since we broke up and I knew doing so could potentially trigger me. But I thought I could handle it. Turns out, it did trigger me. And he hasn't moved. Here's right here a couple towns over trying to lure new victims.

Makes me feel sick and anxious. I admit...I did read his profile and look at his photos (some of which are from a trip we took). Seeing the photos really did a number on me. Can't seem to get them out of my head. On the surface, he seems like a nice, mature guy who has his act together when you read his profile. I can totally see why I bought his act when I read it before we met...there's really no red flags that are obvious. But knowing what I know now, I see it through the lens of reality. Such as ...he says in his profile he wants to meet someone emotionally and intellectually mature, because that's the way he sees himself. Sorry, pal, you're a man-child stuck emotionally somewhere between 3-6 years old!! Guess saying that, though, wouldn't entice new victims. :) Also, he lists himself as conservative in his habits. Oh really?? I don't think compulsive masturbation to fetish porn is very "conservative". Oh yea...and he says he likes dogs (even though he hated my dog (and all dogs as far as I could see) and told me the night I kicked his butt out the door he wanted my dog to die!)

Did I do the wrong thing by looking at his profile? It makes me uneasy that he's still living here but on the other hand maybe he really has moved on (since he's back into internet dating) and will leave me alone.