The Final Hoover....God willing

I'm so exhausted from this break up. This man has continued to hoover....over and over again. He's been blocked on everything, so he's used every means possible to annoy me by leaving things under my doormat (nothing nice), and emailing and texting my mother. To those of you who have read my posts...sorry if this is a repeat.

Anyway, he came by my house last night and banged on the door. I was so asleep (thank you Trazadone!) that I didn't hear it. So, he does another drop by today. I was so sick of this behavior, that I decided to have it out once and for all.

He had the audacity to apologize (never said he wanted to get back together with me), and wanted us to be best friends again. I finally had the ability to get a little closure by telling him how disappointed I was in how he discarded me. That you don't end a relationship like that when you've committed to marry someone. I'm sure he didn't care. When I told him that any friendship with him was impossible....that I was focused on moving on with my life...getting over this...and trying to be a better person. He left in tears.

I'm obviously a little overwhelmed by having to go through this. But, I'm pretty sure he got the message. I told him he would continue to be blocked from me going forward, and any trips to my house were not welcome. I was nice, but firm in my boundaries.

Please, please, please let this be the last time. I think he "got" it, but who knows. He's completely insane.

I'm so, so tired. I prayed that I would be strong enough to endure this conversation when it happened, I think I am. I did a pretty good job standing my ground considering.