FINALLY!! I DID IT!!
FINALLY!! I DID IT!!
Alright....
Ive struggled for years. Was on this board and have also read blogs etc .... for years. I went back so many times, it would make your head spin. But I finally did it, the no contact, remove from all means of communication. Email - Facebook - BBM - blocked his number etc....
This is a big deal, my friends even took me out to celebrate, because I have never been this serious about it.
and if makes a lot of sense, the best way to let them know they are GARBAGE in your eyes is to just delete them from your life..... arguing and stuff isnt a very strong statement.
I think that when you FINALLY realize there is NO change and its NOT something YOU did, it becomes easier. Ive been at it for 5 YEARS!!!!!
Its been one month no contact. I am very close to the family and they still love me and think what im doing is great, they actually also encouraged it.
Anyway, the reason im writing today is im struggling. Im struggling with obsessive thoughts (normal) and sadness. Its such an emotional rollarcoaster because I know I dont want to go back and I dont want to speak or even see him.
However, Im obsessively thinking about him other girls etc. But mainly, how I dont feel Im capable of loving again. Im terrified. Im writing to you guys today because im just venting and looking for support.
Anywords of encouragement would be appreciated, today is just a crappy day.
xo
I'm actually feeling the same
IT IS!
Last week was great, this week not so much!
Perfectly normal, WE.
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Me too
Congratulations!!!! From the
yes!
Was there a final "aha"
well........
SO Happy to have....
I would
Stay the course, get into
Affirm Your New Life!!
cudos to you!
Congrats, congrats, congrats!
Whatever, what great news
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Congrats!