Geez Im having a shitty night
Geez Im having a shitty night
Today I have had one of those days where the reality of what has happened to me has come crashing down on me. I really have been struggling since the bomb was dropped on me. While I havent slipped back all the way into the dark whole, I certainly have suffered a set back.
I find myself trying to comprehend that its true that this man who caused so much trauma for me 20 years ago really came back and did it again and tossed me away in a cold cruel and very callous way.
Today Im going over all the usual thoughts of what if he ends up being happy with her. What if it was just me that he didnt love. Cognitively I know all the answers but emotionally its still difficult. I think to myself all these months he could have done it or said it. Why now? Why right then at that moment?
Gosh I really need to get to counseling hopefully Im gonna get there next week.
Thanks ya'll. Last night was
I just read this now. Glad
Thank you. Its just at times
I go thru the same thoughts
Hey sweetie. You hang in
Cognitive vs emotional.
So what am I doing?? Watching
No No No
but the evidence