Girls ITS TIME, please support me thank you

And i mean hold it. Hold on to it hard. One afternoon, the narc came to my house and wanted to fool around. I had parent teacher conferences to go to for my seven and ten year old daughters. He said, please baby, just a few minutes. He made me lie down on the couch and he used to make me hold still while he put his fist in me; if I flinched he'd say, "What? You don't want me to touch you?" So he told me to close my eyes this time while he was doing this, and it hurt really, really bad, and when he was done it felt like he had done something to me, that he had hurt me inside. I was scared. He left and I went to the conferences. I felt sick all afternoon and evening, and that night, I felt strange, this tremendous pressure in my vagina. I went to the bathroom and found that he had put three apples inside me that afternoon, not only just that he had done it, but he knew I was on my way to school for these conferences. That memory I keep in my heart all the time, just in case I ever have a moment where I think maybe I was wrong about him. Nope. Not wrong. Hold that thought. You can do this. You must do this. What a pig.

There comes a point where they've literally damaged your physical health -- to say nothing of your mental health -- and your body and mind are screaming to you, "Stop!" As emotionally painful as it was for me to go NC, I couldn't help but notice how my health -- everything from stomach trouble to an irregular heartbeat to migraine headaches -- got instantly better the moment I decided once and for all that I was getting off of his rollercoaster of cruelty. It really makes you stop and realize that they are a poison and a toxin and we need to break the habit to get our lives back on track!

yes snowflake, there is something very demonic about these people. When you are hollow inside it is quite easy for the Devil to take up residence. The Devil walks among us. When you hear statements like that and see that it seems normal to them you begin to realize that something is seriously wrong with them. You can see that they dont feel or have any concept of it. That was a classic example of how they view people as objects for their own gratification. God what a horrible life they live. Empty Empty Empty. Needing more more more and never feeling like they are content. They will never be content. Their needs are a bottomless pit without boundaries of any kind. They keep trying and trying to find something that will make them content. More women More thrills more risk taking but they never to do find what they are looking for all because they never got what they were looking for as small children. There needs were not met by the person closest to them usually Mommy. Either mommy ignored them or mommy indulged them when they were really looking for mommy to give them boundaries. Either way Mommy didnt do her job.

You are a stong woman to have put up with all his shit. Now love yourself and take that strength and use it for yourself. Remind yourself, of who your really are, a loving person he took advantaged of. Love yourself. I am just learning the process myself. Lots of Hugs

Yes, honey, you need to stop it. A agree with you: ater those words, nothing else is needed to conculde that he is evil and you don't need it in your life. Breaking addiction is difficult, been there done that. But, you cannot imagine the goodness and the joy you will feel once past this very difficult time! I am 9 months NC now. First 3 months was a nightmare. Then slowly it started to get better with lot of setbacks. After 6 months it got much easier. Now I feel like I am almost healed. I can spent days without thinking about him and when I do, there is no more emotions attached to it. I basically don't have feelings for him anymore. And I was miserable, believe me. I thought this pain would never end. But, it ended. I am a living proof. Stick to this place, We all will give you all the support you need and very soon you will start supporting others as well and you will find it healing too. I wish you all the strengths. We have just one life and it is our duty to live it as joyful as we can. Life is amazing once free from those stupid narcs! Love Winter

You need to go nc immediately. It's so hard I know. We will all help you

what a sick bastard. In the future, I want you to remember this when you start to miss him.

Omg he is sick..a real rat..write down everytime he said/did something to hurt u and abuse u..then refer to it everytime u feel u want to contact him. NC is the best..you don't deserve such horrible treatment...u deserve to be happy.. We all here to help u and support u. Hang in there...its going to get better Xxxxx

Snowflake ur going to get out now before you lose everything including yourself. Right behind you X B

Ok that's sick.. He's sick.. Again.. Explain why he's not blocked?? Hunter

I have been reading your posts, but hadn't commented on them yet. You can do it- you need to do it. He is disgusting and sounds very dangerous- not close to worthy of you. Be strong!!!!!!!!

Snowflake you can do this!!! That is disgusting....absolutely disgusting, and if you were your best friend you would be encouraging her to run a mile and not look back... The way these men get under our skin and make us feel that that kind of behaviour is acceptable is hideous and the only way to remove that thinking from our minds is to have nothing to do with them so that we can reprogram and learn what normal is again. Change your number, block him...he does NOT deserve you to contact him because every time we contact them we are rewarding them. We are telling them it's ok..and its NOT!! Stay strong, and well done! Manda xxxx