Goodbye Evil.

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#1 Jan 4 - 1PM
HardToBelieve
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Goodbye Evil.

You are the epitome of everything evil. Yet you fought so hard to convince me you are a good person, with a good soul, with good intentions and a good reputation.

You said I was supposed to be grateful to have found someone as good as you but in reality you were so lucky to have someone as good as me. I am intelligent, streetwise, determined, kindhearted, funny and beautiful.

I can see why you had so much anxiety and jealousy. You were scared other men might pay interest to me and that I would get tired of you. You were right - you knew all along I was way out of your league and now your biggest fear has come true. I just didn't see it then because I was blindsided by your charm.

But thankfully your true colours came through sooner than you had hoped. I think if you stayed charming and loving for a year at least, I would have been incarcerated by you and found no way to escape.

But that's your mistake. For future reference if you plan on keeping your victims in hostage you should probably not show them your true self for at least a year or two until you've completely broken them down and made them dependent on you.

Fortunately for me, I never wanted your money and gifts to begin with. I accepted your gifts but in return you thought I was going to stay with you. You took my kindness for a weakness. I told you countless times: you don't know how strong I am. But you continued to belittle me.

You said the only reason for why our relationship would not last is if I cheated on you. Other than that you thought our relationship was perfect. It's funny how you didn't seem to think anything else was wrong. Maybe the fact that I was unhappy with you or that you were hurting me.

You probably think I left you for another man just like you accused your other girlfriends of. But no, you were actually so evil to me that I preferred to be alone in exchange to get rid of you.

I wish you all the best. I find that thinking positively and wishing other people well that I am healing properly. I don't hold resentment towards you. If I did it would only prove that you still have an impact on me. I can tell because you still held resentment towards your ex-girlfriend. It goes to show that you have alot of unhealed wounds and unfinished business and haven't quite moved on with your life like you claim to have when you met me.

But since you and I are two different people and react and cope things in life differently, I will say that:

I find that the key to success is not holding bitterness towards others. I have done it before and succeeded in life and I will do the same with you. Happiness is the best revenge when carrying on with life and it's a pleasure to live my life without you.

Like I said - take care.

Jan 4 - 4PM
Femmegem
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Great letter HTB

This is really inspirational, I cant wait for that day when I can spend a full 24 hours without having any resentful thoughts against him! You are right, to resent is to care and I'm glad he doesn't impact you that way any more.
Jan 4 - 2PM
bakingfortherapy
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Opposite of EVIL...

Funny, I just read something yesterday about evil people... the OPPOSITE of EVIL is LIVE! We need to be grateful to be rid of these evil creatures and LIVE, LIVE, LIVE our lives to the fullest!!!!! And we will be stronger and smarter and wiser!! Or from The Help.. :)
Jan 4 - 2PM (Reply to #4)
bakingfortherapy
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You is kind, you is smart, you is important!"
Jan 4 - 1PM
spinning
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HTB, I love love love

this: "I can see why you had so much anxiety and jealousy. You were scared other men might pay interest to me and that I would get tired of you. You were right - you knew all along I was way out of your league and now your biggest fear has come true. I just didn't see it then because I was blindsided by your charm." This began to hit home for me a few months back. It is no wonder Freak Boy wanted to isolate me and totally control me. This is the root of it all. He KNEW ALL ALONG because he saw what others see and he wanted it all for himself. Now that I'm out, I have become reacquainted with the reality that people actually like me! No wonder he wanted to keep me away from all that was real! Thank you for this. It's an awesome, strong, REALITY BASED goodbye and I might add, good riddance! Stay strong, xoxo (not) spinning. NO WAY. NEVER AGAIN

spinning

Jan 4 - 4PM (Reply to #2)
under his thumb
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jealousy...

so true! i remember when we were dating he would run to my side if another guy walked by like he was claiming his territory! he accused me constantly of cheating on him! and 12 years later he admitted he was scared he would lose me...well, he lost me alright! it is insane the way their warped brain works...the isolation, the belittling, the constant ups and downs...good riddance is right!:)