Happiness / vs suffering
Happiness / vs suffering
I am almost 4 months removed from my relationship at this point. I started reading a ton of material at one point and found some relief. I haven't been doing as much lately trying to refocus at work and home. I seem to be going back downhill obsessing each and everyday. I think that hardest thing is not being able to let her know the abuse and suffering that she has put me through. Secondly, she wouldn't care anyway. It is almost unbearable that she seems to be ok and well adjusted without me and I sit and suffer each and everyday. I know she is not a good person and is bad for me, but I would run back tomorrow if only given the opportunity. The only good time in our 3.5 relationship was while I was married. Once my separation came through things went downhill. I am a 52 year old CPA, black belt in karate, pilot, extremely successful person and she has made me feel like I'm not worth a dime. I realize I have allowed her to do this, but how do you turn it around ?
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BEC
extremely insightful and on
Focus in you.. Read, Read,
BEC
BEC