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#1 Jun 15 - 9PM
Sparrow
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He's back

I never in a million years thought I would write these words.......he's back, he's hovering. I thought I did EVERYTHING to keep him at bay. Guess not........modern technology is amazing. I give him an A for effort.......piece of crap that he is.......

Jun 16 - 2PM
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Dudette, so awesome to hear!

Dudette, so awesome to hear! That is great news! 7 months? You go girl!!!
Jun 16 - 2PM (Reply to #17)
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Sparrow

yes, quite smug about that ;-) no but in all honesty the first months were hell and I had NC reminders everywhere, the kitchen, the family calendar, the noticeboard, my work diary, my desk etc.... self discipline and pure stubborness on my part. And reading the horrors brought upon ladies that broke NC strengthended my resolve.... In fact I did an NC job on a few other people for good measure. Both my parents are beneficiaries, ah the peace..... Much love and take care NC Dx
Jun 16 - 12PM
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Hryan77 - You MOST DEFINATELY

Hryan77 - You MOST DEFINATELY need to be prepared for him to resurface again. There are some girls on here that it took their narcs 6 months to a year to resurface. Make no mistake, he will return, but he won't stay. He NEVER will, even if somewhere in his head he wants to.....he CAN'T. He is incapable of loving anyone, he doesn't even love himself. He masks that, makes it appear that he is in love with himself, but inside he is crippled, emotionally handicapped. Extensive therapy most times doesn't help either........make sure to work on yourself, get strong, stand firm and heal from this raping of your soul. NC, NC, NC!!!!!! Good luck! We are all here for you!
Jun 16 - 10AM
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He's back

Hi Sparrow, I'm new to the website; I haven't posted my story yet, but I had to comment on your post. I've been divorced a year now, and had to restart NC at 3 wks. So my ex N (thank you Lord) does the same thing to me. I get weird emails (I think he's trying to attach some type of spyware to my computer.) And like you, I just click delete. So my questions are, if they never cared about us, and they've moved on. Why do they spend so much time coming up with "clever ways" to find out what we're doing secretly? Why do they care? Or do they? Someone help me, give me a aha moment! Keep staying strong Sparrow and using that delete key. Each click empowers you more! Peace to you...
Jun 16 - 11AM (Reply to #10)
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Hi Wantpeace and welcome to

Hi Wantpeace and welcome to the site. Glad to see you here. The answer to your question is quite easy.......they need to stay in your head, they NEED to keep you as supply. They will move on to others, but us being their "main" source of supply, one they can count on while pouraging through others, they had to stay near, in our heads, our thoughts. Once they no longer are, they have to establish a new main supply. That takes waaaay too much effort, so they maintain it with us. Another interesting fact: they view the main supplier as a queen, someone to be placed on a pedestal (only in their heads, they will never admit that) and the other suppliers are considered dirty whores to them. They look at them with disgust..... No matter how you slice it, they are NOT healthy people and need to be kept at arms length at all times! Good luck with your journey! It will seem like a long one, at times you will want to give up, give in......but don't! NOTHING will ever change! It will never be what it was in the beginning! NEVER! Here is a wonderful quote, I keep attached to both computers as a reminder.... "I will always cherish the initial misconceptions I had about you" That keeps me focused at all times! Reach out to me and the others any time! Smiles
Jun 16 - 12PM (Reply to #13)
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Sparrow

Wow you are getting good at this! Hunter
Jun 16 - 12PM (Reply to #14)
Sparrow
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LOL! Thanks Hunter!

LOL! Thanks Hunter!
Jun 16 - 11AM (Reply to #11)
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Sparrow

I find what you said to be very interesting...but what about in the cases where the exN just falls off the face of the earth. All I heard (for the most part) was how i was perfect, his angel, how no one would ever compare, hold a candle to me...blah blah blah...puke puke puke... ya ok...then way to f*ck it up. He hoovered and wanted me back the two other times he kicked me out...now has an OW who well if it's who it sounds like is a whore, a badge bunny, so the complete opposite of what I am...even in appearances... Still say no one will ever do for him, his kids and his mother what I did...so ANYWAY...sure whoever this OW is isn't much work. I've been NC for 5 weeks he has been quiet for almost 4 weeks...so is it just that he realizes he lost control or that I'm too much work?? I still wonder whether I need to prepare myself for him resurfacing some day
Jun 16 - 12PM (Reply to #12)
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Hryan

Silent treatment is abuse. Most likely he will re appear! They do this when you feel better! Always be prepared! Remember the silent abuse because if the return he will suck You back in and spit you out again! Hunter
Jun 16 - 10AM
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just 16 days............

just 16 days............
Jun 16 - 11AM (Reply to #8)
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Correction........

Officially 16 days. The date that I was done and wanted it over was in April........but since I worked on "exposure" during the month of May, I had to have contact with him. I WOULD NOT reccomend anyone attempting to do this though. It was a lot of effort on my part, felt good for the moment, but in the end, the result is still the same, it changed nothing and I knew it wouldn't nor did I want it to. BUT, with that said, looking back, I could have really done more harm then good. I put myself in harms way, went up against a mentally ill man who goodness knows, could have done just about anything if enraged enough. PLEASE, PLEASE..........I urge you DO NOT ATTEMPT TO EXPOSE OR UNMASK THEM!!!! JUST WALK AWAY AND CONTINUE NC!!!
Jun 16 - 10AM
hryan77
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how long...

how long had you been NC?
Jun 16 - 7AM
Sparrow
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Hunter, you are so

Hunter, you are so right...........they never do go away. One would think it was because we were such wonderful, loving, caring people. Special people..........but that's not the reason at all. They don't go away because they believe we are a sure thing as far as supply. They are like that "bad penny" that keeps turning up. Again, no worries here, been there done that way too many times with this numb nut......he is history.
Jun 16 - 1AM
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how long

since your last contact?
Jun 16 - 5AM (Reply to #2)
Sparrow
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Yes. I really thought I took

Yes. I really thought I took the right measures to ensure I wouldn't hear from him. Boy, they are tricky little devils. I changed my email, and my home phone number and blocked his number from my cell.......he opened up a "textfree" account on pinger.com and sent me a text to my cell phone with a different phone number. At first, I didn't realize it was him. He was asking me if we were "meeting" tonight, and when I wrote back "who is this" he wouldn't reply........than later in the day he wrote "you forgot......feel bad". Yesterday was his birthday. I am sure that he emailed me, had the email returned to him, texted me, had that returned and then opened up the pinger account. Oh, and he is off of Match.com now........cut me a break. I see right through this ploy. No worries though, I DID NOT correspond after that........
Jun 16 - 6AM (Reply to #3)
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Sparrow

Gee, don't you feel Lucky? Delete,Delete,Delete. They never go away, Hunter
Jun 16 - 2PM (Reply to #4)
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I am still hoping mine has gone forever...

I only had the one silent call and not I no longer answer witheld numbers under any circumstances...I don't really worry about it, I don't really feel anything about it. I have so totally dropped off the face of the planet that I am seriously thinking he will never come back....good ;-) I am starting to feel seriously chilled about the N thing now, like a very distant memory, I have finally reached indifference and moved on... 7 months NC -ish don't even really count anymore... darn luck if he ever does, I am a different person now and would not fall for his kind of bullshit again Love to all Bxxxxx