How is it that..

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#1 Jan 3 - 7PM
SavingMyself
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How is it that..

How is it that you can be feeling great.. accomplishing so much.. feeling stronger, wiser, better.. moving forward.. letting go.. being grateful for discard.. rejoicing in a now sane/normal home. When..

It an unexpected force pulls you back.

I've been feeling good, when tonight a gf said her relative (who is friends with Xn) visited him at his new home while his gf showed up with her over night bag. She said gf stays the night there often.. then visions started going thru my head.. the home we were suppose to have together.. her making herself comfortable there.. them being intimate, sleeping/waking up together.. me being replaced so quickly.

Goldie told me that I should be happy to dodge the bullet and say "here have him.. take him, please". Part of me does.. but part of me feels sad for meaning absolutely nothing to him. I know it takes time but I want that constant thought of good riddance with no weaknesses arising.

Jan 4 - 3AM
Journey
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Contact = pain, even by

Journey on...

Jan 5 - 10AM (Reply to #9)
SavingMyself
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Triggers

Jan 5 - 2PM (Reply to #13)
Journey
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STOP! Wishing you would just

Journey on...

Jan 9 - 10AM (Reply to #14)
SavingMyself
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Thanks Journey

Jan 9 - 10AM (Reply to #15)
spinning
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Saving, the shift in your

spinning

Jan 9 - 11AM (Reply to #16)
SavingMyself
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Spinning, You've been an amazing help to me!!

Jan 10 - 12PM (Reply to #17)
BlindNoMore
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I am overjoyed reading this,

Jan 10 - 1PM (Reply to #18)
SavingMyself
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BlindNoMore

Jan 5 - 1PM (Reply to #12)
Janie53
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SM

Jan 5 - 11AM (Reply to #10)
Used
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saving

Jan 5 - 2PM (Reply to #11)
SavingMyself
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I know

Jan 4 - 1AM
kokosiru
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I understand how u feel

Jan 3 - 10PM
SavingMyself
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Learning as I go..

Jan 7 - 8AM (Reply to #6)
homeschoolmama
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Grieving

Jan 4 - 8AM (Reply to #5)
BlindNoMore
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Good for you, Saving. You're

Jan 3 - 9PM
Blubutterfly
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I can relate

Jan 3 - 9PM
Abigail
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It might help...

Jan 3 - 7PM
Krammer
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It hurts . . .