hurting and feeling like giving in....need to be honest

I am having a really hard time this week. Partly cause I have had to be low contact with my exN due to housing things. Just a lot of triggers. I am selling my house that we both lived in together and after he moved out he conveniently left some of his daughters things at my house... and a bunch of his stuff too and while I am angry as heck that he couldn't be bothered to go through his mess of crap ( even though I left my home to live with my parents so he could have time and space to move ... I gave him 6 weeks ) I still am finding the pain to set in. While cleaning out my old house today I started packing things and had trigger after trigger when I realized that his shirts were there and her toys and baby blankets... It reminded me of the babies we were suppose to have ( I miscarried twins in November )... And than I started to think of him with another woman and I felt sick to my stomach. I am just really sad tonight.... excited to have NO contact instead of LOW contact once the things have been divided/taken care of...will be by Friday... ( I was able to have NO contact for the weeks before we had to do all the house dividing things)... It is so much easier with NO contact at all... Thanks for listening.....