I ACCEPTED HIS CONDITIONS, JUST SO HE WOULD REMAIN IN MY LIFE:(

You should never measure your self worth on the way someone treats you.....especially when that person is a complete ass. You have the power to where you want to go in life and how you want to be treated in life, this power lies with in you, you have the power to say yes or no......... yes its hard, but the power is yours "No one can make you feel less than what you are with out your consent"........so don't give it to them! be strong and love yourself. I know it hurts like hell.....im still going through it, but it will slowly heal with time and knowledge, in power yourself, put your time and energy back into you,your children, friends,and your family. Its scary to be alone, to be with out the person we thought were our everything and we remember the good times and what could have been......... this is something i definitely had trouble with letting go and i'm getting there slowly and i can definitely say with time and knowledge it gets better, we must take it step by step.......... my first step is no contact its been 8 weeks and my Ex N is still contacting me but for my own well being i have stopped subjecting myself to his emotional bull crap....... to get myself better to pick myself up and to not allow him to rum my life, my emotions......... im not saying you cant cry, crying is one of the things we must do to get it out.......... just know that THESE MEN DON'T MAKE US WHO WE ARE! At the beginning its as hard as ever but we must be strong and once we have made it through those first stages, we free our mind and we start to heal our body and mind, that is when we start to re gain our natural thought process and we start to see the bigger picture and allot of the red flags that we were minimizing...... it starts to become clear because we are slowly coming out of being under his control. What this man has done to you and is still doing to you because you are allowing it is NOT OK..... YOU ARE WORTH MORE..... and there is no human being on this earth that owns you..... your body, mind, and soul is not up for sale! It starts NOW! be strong and don't allow someone to love you in an emotionally abusive way.....because that's not love..... that is most definitely not love. Be strong, you have the power.

"You will always belong to me." That sentence says it all. You are a belonging, like a piece of furniture to look at when he wants to, a boat in the garage that he takes out when he wants to. Relationships (real ones) don't come with ownership papers. I stayed over three decades before I figured out that I was nothing more than a possession. It is however a decision you will have to make or not make. Are you willing to live without a life, a real life?

to walk away. You deserve love and respect! "Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option." — Mark Twain xx, Rose

Yeah, when you`re with him you get sucked into the madness (check out "shared psychosis" or "folie a deux"). And the next day, when the fog lifts a little, you feel like a prisoner. You know yourself which of those perceptions is real, bastaya. So act on it. Do you want a strong, healthy, happy fulfilled you, or to ba a drained lifeless shadow to a sick vampire all of your life? He is SICK. Your self-esteem cant be that bad that, that you`d enter into a bargain that means the END of you. And it does. Being together with him means the END of you. Get out. Stay out, whatever it costs. Run like hell, don`t stop running and never look back. Tigerlily

Welcome.. The question I'll ask.. What do you want out of this relationship? I will tell you the more you allow him to control you the worse he will become.. His demands will get bigger and bigger.. I think you deserve better... Hunter