I am....

37 days NC. I was over 90 days before when I broke NC.

Last night, I had a anxiety attack, it lasted for a short while. I felt like I was going to lose it. My head started spining so bad from the whole narc situation and the money he stoled from me. He was paying me back as long as played along with him.

Then thoughts of acting out, came into my mind. Like going out and drinking or calling some men I know.

I just sat down and started some deep breathing techinques I am learning. I told myself it will pass, and it did. I just let myself relax, watch a movie, and then finally read and went to sleep.

It's work, not reaching for a crutch of some type, to ease the pain. I am determine to pass this milestone in my life. I couldn't do all this without you wonderful ladies and this forum.

Thank you for all the sharing and encouragement you give.

xoxo
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