I hate even writing this....

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#1 Apr 2 - 6PM
fallingfoward
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I hate even writing this....

because I feel so stupid. I went out a this weekend and saw the biker guy. (for those of you that haven't read my post, he is someone I started dating after the ex-nar). I did go up to him, and just ask him how he was doing. Short conversation, he was cordial. The rest of the night i was with my friends, I thought the night went fine.

But today I am a mess, I checked out his facebook and he has some comment about woman shouldn't put up with men that treat them badly in reference to one of his friends. I later text him, asking him if we could at least be friends. Of course, no answer, I set myself up.

Now i spinning from this, totally rejected again. He seem to care about people, other people had told me he was very kind. Probably just lies I wanted to believe, my son told me the opposite, that he is a bully.

I can't stop crying, can't get myself to do anything. Then thoughts of the ex-narcbf comes flooding in. Again I wondering what the hell is wrong with me.

I thought if I shared on the forum, it would help me not doing anything worse. I'm fighting myself, I want to go over his house and talk to him. I already did this once before, when I was driving over I kept thinking how many times I did that with the ex-narcbf. I just feel like I'm a freak, and no man can stand me. I keep replaying everything thinking what did I do so bad?

Now I over 70 days nc with the ex-narcbf, but I back to square one with the biker guy. How did I get addict so fast? Is it just the behavior I"m addicited to and not the man? Help, anyone.

Apr 3 - 5PM
Trainwreck56
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Dear SWEET WOMAN!

Apr 3 - 5PM (Reply to #54)
fallingfoward
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Thanks TW

Apr 3 - 5PM (Reply to #53)
fallingfoward
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Thanks TW

Apr 3 - 9AM
fallingfoward
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A Big Thanks to all of You....

Apr 3 - 8PM (Reply to #50)
Dorothy1
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"Thank you, I not sure what I

Apr 3 - 8PM (Reply to #51)
fallingfoward
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songofawomen

Apr 3 - 12PM (Reply to #47)
Lookonthesunnyside
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Fallingforward, Im so sorry

Apr 3 - 12PM (Reply to #48)
Lookonthesunnyside
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Also Im very sorry to hear

Apr 3 - 12PM (Reply to #49)
fallingfoward
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Thank you Lookingonthesunnyside....

Apr 2 - 10PM
sunrising
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Shock and awe just posted the

Apr 2 - 10PM (Reply to #44)
fallingfoward
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Sunrising

Apr 3 - 7AM (Reply to #45)
sunrising
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click on it one more time a

Apr 2 - 10PM (Reply to #43)
fallingfoward
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Sunrising

Apr 2 - 8PM
onwithmylife
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fallingforward

Apr 2 - 8PM (Reply to #40)
fallingfoward
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I don't...

Apr 2 - 9PM (Reply to #41)
Lookonthesunnyside
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ff, when you have been able

Apr 2 - 8PM
Journey
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I agree with Sparrow 100%.

Journey on...

Apr 2 - 8PM
Sparrow
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Falling Forward, please know

Apr 2 - 8PM (Reply to #36)
fallingfoward
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Sparrow

Apr 2 - 8PM (Reply to #37)
Sparrow
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It is hard, but you need to

Apr 2 - 8PM
sunrising
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this is all the stuff your

Apr 2 - 9PM (Reply to #33)
fallingfoward
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Thank you sunrising

Apr 2 - 9PM (Reply to #34)
sunrising
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Today is your day

Apr 2 - 8PM
ruby01 (not verified)
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fallingfoward

Apr 2 - 9PM (Reply to #31)
fallingfoward
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Thank-you Ruby

Apr 2 - 8PM
Lookonthesunnyside
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ps. dont you dare go to his

Apr 2 - 8PM (Reply to #24)
fallingfoward
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I need to stop...

Apr 2 - 9PM (Reply to #29)
Lookonthesunnyside
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You will stop hurting ff. No

Apr 2 - 8PM (Reply to #25)
Journey
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I'm sorry you are suffering

Journey on...

Apr 2 - 8PM (Reply to #27)
fallingfoward
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Journey,