I have a job!

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#1 Jul 1 - 4PM
jen79
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I have a job!

I had my first day at work today, just a waitress job for now, but I am going back to life, it was pretty nice, nice people there. It was a long hard day.

After that all this sadness came over me again, about him, about my other ex, about the cats of my ex, that they might just have a few years to live anymore, and all this fear of loosing it all, pain mixed with love.

Now I am almost crying, can anyone tell me what the hell is this.

I still have PTSD, haven't I?

Jul 2 - 2AM
jen79
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hunter, susan, gettinbetter, dudette

thank you for your comfort! Yesterday I also had a professional photoshoot for my application pics, it went out great, on monday I will get the pics, I hope it will increase my chances for better job, well I cant do much about my screwed up past, but at least I can have great pics hahaha. You are right, its a new beginning, and I have anxieties now about it. Its saying goodbye to my weird comfort in pain and isolation. And that is scary, but I guess its a good scare. I have some time off now until wednesday, so I can recover from my first day working, I am completely exhausted after 9 hours working yesterday, since I have been out of working routine for an entire year now. I made friends with the choleric cook chef, that I was warned about already, now he is totally likes me, helps me opening the door to balance all the plates, and I am the only one he doesnt yell at. I am not sure if that was a good thing or not, but I used my new knowledge first time in daily life, I guess now I can handle difficult people better, maybe better than I imagined, I know what they want to hear, and how they tick. I will keep you updated! It was also good for my self esteem to be around people again, and see that many people really like me, coworkers and guests. It was good to get some positive reactions. I hope you all do well too! Bi big hugs!
Jul 2 - 4PM (Reply to #6)
Happy1
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I'm so glad for you!

I'm so glad for you! Congrats!
Jul 1 - 9PM
Hunter
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Jen

Congratulations on the job! You are living again and that great! However, you are moving on and that's scary! Tomorrow is another day, you're doing great! Hunter
Jul 1 - 6PM
Susan32
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Congratulations!!!

It's great you've got a job! God is looking out for you.
Jul 1 - 5PM
gettinbetter
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WOW JEN thats awesome. Things

WOW JEN thats awesome. Things are really looking up for you! The crying thing is anxiety. Things are changing for you. Change creates anxiety even good changes create anxiety. Your life is heading in a new direction and you are saying goodbye to the past and the pain all of which had become like an old friend to you, comforting and familiar in a strange way. Now you are off into the unknown at that will most definitely create anxiety but this is good anxiety.
Jul 1 - 4PM
dudette
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Jen

Congratulations though! Brilliant news! The thoughts will pass as your new job is only the beginning of things getting better and easier!!! Love to you Dx