I know I have read the message posts.....
I know I have read the message posts.....
Everyday is like a rollercoaster for me, i feel strong, then I feel lost, then I feel used and hurt. I know that everything was a lie and I am better off deep down, but I wish i could erase him like he has erased me.
Some of my most memorable moments in my life were with him, he took me places i have never been, wine and dined me, would give me endless massages and tell me I was his dream girl and he would never get over me.
Before meeting him i was so content with being single (single for two years) - I was only with him five months and he turned my world upside down. I am ashamed that I would let someone do that. He told me he knew how and where he was going to propose to me, gave me a promise ring and told me I was the most amazing person he ever met.
I am 32, and totally fell for it being that I am in a place in my life that i want to have a family and settle down. You here of people meeting, falling in love and getting married all the time, like a dream come true, why wouldnt i believe it.
My mom was basically planning a wedding in her head that is how perfect all seemed to be with us. I am having trouble letting this go, it haunts me like the worst nightmare and i cant wake up. my stomach is in knots every morning and night.
I cant stop thinking about all our exciting plans we were going to make, we both love halloween, christmas, we were going to have thanksgiving at his house and invite both of our families, this weekend is particular hard with the fourth. I want to erase these thoughts, I wish it were that easy.
Any advice out there to help me realize, he was not the right guy for me.
Not to mention, I introduced him to a sacred part of my life that no other guy has been a part of, a few special getaways where I used to escape guy troubles. I let him IN to my WHOLE World, something I have never given a guy and he just snatched it, stomped all over it and ran away to the next person.
Not to mention his family was all about us, I dont get that, like he had never been this way with a girl before. His mom said she could tell we were in LOVE. Also, she said he has never been this way for a girl before and he told me that I was different too, how could one not fall into this trap? It hurts
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