I thought I was beyond this. Forgiveness, cut the bond of pain. BLAH BLAH BLAH
Well I had a massage today. And it released such rage, I want REVENGE.
I want to hurt him. I want to post on his fucking facebook page that he is an abuser, to women, children and dogs.
I want to call his sister and tell her what he has done. I want to call him and tell him how much I fucking hate his guts. I have not talked with him since we broke up in late January. I did break nc and text him, the stupid mother fucker that I was going to sue him in civil court.
The betrayal, the utter hate I feel for this man is scary. I understand killing someone. I supported him, married him, took care of him and he spit me out like a fucking piece of garbage.
I get this nc thing. But where do I put this hate, rage. I want to be free of it. Just when I think I am getting somewhere, it starts all over again.
I am not contacting him for any other reason than to let him have it. To get it out, to the person it belongs to.
I won't do it until I get some advise from you guys.
I am going to a meeting . I will be back on around ten.