I'm sobbing

Not knowing anything about you except that you've lived through 11 years of hell, I know already that you're a fighter, a survivor. Your freedom lies ahead of you and so does a beautiful life of YOUR choosing. You've fought for it. I'm proud of you. Hugs, D.

I just want to tell you that I know what you are going through. Even though life was terrible with them we will still mourn the loss of the fantasy life we pretended to have or wished we could have had. My divorce was final 3 weeks ago and even though I know it was the best thing ever for me, I was still sad. I was angry at myself for feeling sad about a psychopath that was very cruel to me. I would try not to cry and pretend that I was ok. My Therapist told me to cry if I want to. She said that I have been through hell for the last 28 years and that I will have mixed feelings. My mom told me that everyday it will get better and better and she was right. Come to think of it I haven't cried in 3 days. Hang in there. I was married to the psycho for 25 years and I accept that I have these sad feelings and they will pass. I bless these feelings and I accept them and i know that this too shall pass. What helped me was that last week I googled all of the horrible things that he did to me. I really sat down and thought of all the things that he did and guess what came up? Psychopath! That says it all! I am done.

But have faith it will get better! This is hopefully the worst of it and can only go up from here ! I am not there yet...but I am sure it is bittersweet! I truly understand where you are coming from and it sucks! You know you have so much support on here... Feel free to message me...I also am ending 10 years of marriage and in a similar mind frame ;) hang in there! BE STRONG...

He never deserved you. Its so hard but screw him. Narcissists are jerks they leave you in so much pain and could care less. This is a good thing he is out of your life. you diin't lose anything precious.. *hugs*

I'm so sorry Redhead! This pain is the worst, but know it WILL subside, trust that. Let it out, cry for every broken promise and dream - do it now to remove its toxicity from your system and to get you to the other side of this, which is one of the most difficult days to endure. "He apologized & told me he loved me more than I'll likely ever know..." For perspective, let me add that my exN said pretty much the same thing. They say they'll love us more than we'll ever know because they know they can't really love - so how COULD we ever know? If they were actually capable of loving, we WOULD know and they'd have no reason to say it like that... Be strong, this pain WILL lessen once he is COMPLETELY removed from your home and your emotional freedom has a chance to be reborn as you reclaim your space for YOU to live in again. This is when your healing truly begins - with their removal from our lives. We are here for you! (((((((hugs)))))))

He has no remorse. Repeat that to yourself. He isn't sorry that it had to end like this. He isn't sorry that things went they way they did. He never loved you. When he says he loved you in ways you will likely never know - believe him. You will know he likely never loved you, translated in narcspeak. Cry now, but don't cry forever. The pain will go away. Keep reading the forums. Time heals wounds. Be glad he is gone and that it went smoothly. Pray he doesn't come back to haunt you when you carry on with your life.

After what you've ben posting.. You should be popping the champagne .. He's.a Piece of shit manipulator.. He can't even get his things without pushing your buttons.. Sorry Red.. It's for the best.. Ave a good cry.. Tomorrow is another day.. Hunter