Imprisoned
Imprisoned
That's how I feel.
Almost 6 months later, and I'm feeling stuck.
I don't miss him, indeed, I just miss so badly the life I thought I had.....
Not a care in the world, just taking care of my family and living each day, yes busy, but a happy busy.
I'm angry, I'm lonely, and I'm tired of trying to pretend I'm not. I'm tired of pretending I'm strong.
Why did he choose me? How could I have fallen so head over heels in love with someone who wasn't real?
Why did he make me his wife and promise me the moon?
Was being the Madonna a good thing or a bad thing? Did it mean he felt something? Something? Anything?
We used to laugh so much! And when we worked together, we accomplished so much. He was my best friend?
And he walked away without blinking! Never looked back, and could truly care less if the boys and I live or die.....is just worried about what it might cost him....no matter that it almost cost my life!
I hear the mantra over and over...THEY ARE NOT REAL THEY ARE NOT REAL.....sometimes, it's too much for me to bear.
Why didn't he just leave us alone? I left a good life to be with him, and honestly, honestly felt, that God had brought him to me.....I know now, that God would never contradict the Word. It might be too late for my soul to know though....I have been through so much in my life, so much abuse.....but this cut is the deepest and has taken more from me, than all the rest put together.......but HE'S NOT REAL. He was real then......I had nightmares last night, he was calling my name...over and over and over......just didn't sleep at all. I wish it was all a nightmare, and I would wake up now!
stuck
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
What a terribly brutal
gullablegull
Cynthia
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Barbara
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Barbara
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coward
enoughalready
TOTAL COWARDS.........
cowards
making us homeless...
He walked away...
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"Soldier, don't confuse your rank with MY authority!"
NoNarcingZone
Ending the dance
LOL!
imprisoned.........
Thank you NarcNarc. That is
I am so sorry for the very
Peace. J
Seems they r all the same!!
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smilefacepr...I could've written this
hitandrun and gullablegull
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Yeah !!
happydaysahead
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Barbara
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Wow!
COWARDS!!!
hitandrun
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ahhh i got the i will never