It's hard letting go. Help
It's hard letting go. Help
I should know better. I have been a member for over 20 weeks. I broke NC July 5th. Though I haven't seen him (he asked me to, but I told him I was busy) I still shouldn't have responded to his texts and emails, but I did. I tell everyone else to be strong, and yet I did not listen to myself. He has been texting me everyday then suddenly last week he stopped. After a week he texted and said he ran a race. I went to the race website and saw he ran with that bimbo he was cheating on me with last year. Okay. So I wrote him a very kind email saying that it hurt my feelings when he just dropped out and that I am still in love with him (I know, I know, I am such a jerk). The next day he sent me a TEXT, not an email saying his leg was hurting from the running and...."sorry but I have been on a business trip flying for the past 4 days". That's all he said!! How cold. He completely ignored my feelings and gave some BS reason why he dropped out. I have been with him for 5 years and it NEVER mattered when he was out of town. We always spoke everyday. Even just 2 weeks ago when he was on a business trip he texted me 2 times a day. Does he NOT even remember TWO WEEKS AGO?? Anyway, I wanted to respond to tell him so many different things like...don't you get it, we were together for 5 f'n years, have you forgotten everything, but I recently read a post where someone said that silence was the loudest sound. Is that what I should do? Would silence be the best response? I must tell you how angry I am right now. It's like....what happened to his memory? He was the one who had been texting me several times a day for the past month. Then when he suddenly drops out and I tell him a feel bad he gives me a stupid response? Is he just f'n with my mind? Anyway, is silence truly the loudest sound? I need some relief. I feel so sad. I keep getting pulled in. And I am stupid because I can't seem to let go.....though I know I should. xoxo ACgirl
he hears your silence
You are not stupid
Silence is golden
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