Loneliness: it's as real in the relationship with the narc as out of it!
Loneliness: it's as real in the relationship with the narc as out of it!
I encountered a strange feeling today! Loneliness is not something I have felt! I've been glad the narc is gone! I like my own space! Even being a single mum has it's advantages in some ways! (a few annoying bits too on the freedom front) But I realised that I am alone! I don't have a relationship? Would I like one one day? Sure? But why would I be thinking about this stuff already? Then I realised we are all lonely in a relationship with a narc! Being emotionally involved with a narc is not balanced! We give, they take, we ask for more and they pull it out from under us! So after you finally go contact! You realise that you haven't just been alone since you broke up or since you went no contact but intact you have been alone, you have been emotionally discarded, mentally chastised and alone for months years, nearly the entired duration of your relationship with the N, however long that is?? So I realised that the gulf I just became aware of isn't recent or even new at all! It's always been there but it's probably more pronounced because there is no "fake" relationship to mask it!
It would be wonderful to love and be loved!
I sometimes wonder why God invites these defective struggles into our lives?
What good can come off such heartache!?
What can we learn?
To be happy alone? Who knows?
But sometimes it's the harsh reality that this weird pinch of loneliness is not a new or recent feeling but something I was always aware of while I was with him!
Just feels to me like I've been alone 4 years now!
Sad but true!
Good will to all! Xx
Your words really spoke to
So true, I felt alone for 5
Qing Yuan
Oh Ruby,
Hi. Strong point--and a poem