Narc standard m.o.
Narc standard m.o.
I'm wondering about how a couple of things work. If anyone has any insight on this, I'd be really interested.
1. With the exception of the few times I sensed underlying anger/contempt/negativity from him...he seemed pretty even keel. And regularly described himself as someone who "cruises along", pretty contented, unruffled. Yes, I know that sometimes they desribe themselves as things they aren't, but they also regularly tell you exactly how it is too. I definitely got the distinct feeling that he's not "tormented, miserable, in a constant state of unease, or perpetually frustrated from a driving need to control everything." Yet I've read that this is what regularly goes on upstairs for them. A constant state of unrest. Which is it? Does this vary from narcissist to narcissist depending on severity? I think my ex was probably pretty pissed when I rejected ("abandoned") him and moved away, but other than that I think he simply finds new toys and gets on with it. Like a small child enjoying the new things life has to offer around various corners. I have a really hard time believing these guys are always living in a mental state of hell. Not that the notion would make me misty. Are they?
2. Is the covert abuse conscious or otherwise? I've read both. My ex always insisted that he had no idea he was saying such offensive things, that they "just kind of came out." He told me that he didn't think far ahead enough to have some evil plan that included dropping comments meant to tear my heart apart months later or whenever they hit home. He seemed to almost react to his split of me with a split of himself. "Bad" (complaining, no fun, living in the past) Venus got annoyed, sometimes cruel N. Sweet, cool Venus got sweet, cool N. Do you think it's possible that they do these things entirely on an unconscious, deeply-functioning defensive level? Or do they know? These things keep bothering me, raising the same repeat questions in my mind. I wonder if anyone else has asked themselves these questions. Or maybe I just need to let this type of stuff go entirely? I just kind of want to better understand.
Know they hurt others?
Venus
Thank you Lisa
Doubting
Ally....You are awesome <3
Wow, thank you =)
When the N is a teacher...
I would say that years of
I suspect that there are so
Truth or lies it doesn't
Our narcs are so similar
Journey on...
Failed Connections
I think about this too
narcissizednomore
Annddd
Venus
For what it's worth
Heres the thing I dont think
Thank you Ally, Sick of It =)
Narc m.o. for Venus
I agree with this. The yes