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#1 Dec 20 - 5PM
needing2know
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nightmares

when I was I think about 2 months out I started having nightmares about the ex, but it was never his face I seen , it was the face of the devil but it was him, Friday will be 5 months out and now I am having nightmares about being shot in the head! I can see myself laying in bed and I actually see myself getting shot! It wakes me up because it "feels" so real and I wake up because it feels like someone hit me in the head. Has anyone had these types of dreams? This is the 4th night I have had this dream, and what really freaks me out is it is him that is doing the shooting and I can actually see the bullet hitting me in the head. I don't know why I am having these dreams but they are freaking me out.He had evil eyes (not in dream)and actually has the satanic star on his forehead! it is in the wrinkles of his head! I haven't been thinking about him, been having alot of fun with my kids and getting everything ready for Christmas so I don't know why all of a sudden the nightmares are back and even worse. Do you think he is thinking about me and is doing some kinda mind thing? Any thought would really help right now. I don't want to sleep tonight :(

Dec 21 - 8AM
Je Suis
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evil influences

These kinds of dreams in sleep, or thoughts while awake are certainly an extension of the evil that surrounded us when in relationship with these people. Whether they are aware or not, they are carrying really nasty energy. What has helped me is to affirm before sleep, or any time in the day: "To all uninvited influences in my presence, I ask you to depart. You are but love and light. You are healed and whole, and you each have a perfect place to go. I ask my higher self (or Holy Spirit, or the God of your experience) to take you there now. Each of you go in peace." This, or any devotional prayer or mantra for protection can center you, and remind you that you have a support which is far more powerful than evil. That would be LOVE! Sweet Dreams!
Dec 21 - 8AM
Alissa
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I can't remember where, but

I can't remember where, but not so long ago I've read something about satanic star tattoos in the wrinkles of the forehead... I've been having nightmares too. About spiders walking next to my pillow. It looks so real that I scream and jump out of bed, that's how real it looks. Nightmares suck :(
Dec 21 - 3AM
Wallace
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Nightmares

Normal part of the process, I'm afraid. I started having nightmares while I was married to the ex-N but they got worse for about 2 months after I left. Then I had some terrible frightening ones, also about evil etc and I woke up really frightened one night. I also still have dreams where I have got back together with him however in the dream I am always thinking "this is wrong, I don't actually want to be with this man anymore" but for some strange reason I am back with him. Really weird. They do get better and fortunately I haven't had a bad one for a while. Taking a light sleeping pill does help. Hang in there.
Dec 20 - 6PM
mystwoman
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Nightmares were a real

Nightmares were a real problem for me a few months out from the D&D as well. In my case, I had nightmares about xnh, his hideous P daughter, and xnh's narc mommy taking over my life (again) and trying to kill me. It somehow didn't seem fair to me that I had to endure their abuse for years, and then when I finally got rid of them, they haunted my dreams. Go away already!! lol. In reality, xnh did tell me he wished I would, "Go ahead and die. Hurry up and get it over with because *I* was holding him back and ruining his life." I have several serious health problems. He, also, told me that he was going to beat the shit out of me until I divorced him, knowing that I have severe osteoporosis and this would terrify me completely (it did). The nightmares happened every night for several weeks, starting a few months after xnh D&D'd, and they slowly started to get less and less frequent. Like you, I was afraid to go to sleep at night. However, it is now very rare for me to have a nightmare about xnh. I'm currently 19 months NC with xnh. From what I understand, repeated nightmares are a symptom of post traumatic stress disorder. There is a link about this here: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001923/ We've all certainly been through a traumatic experience with these narcs. In my case, I also think the nightmares were my sub-conscientious mind working it's way through my feelings about xnh, and the abuse I endured during my 16 years with him. Xnh's mommy and his hideous P daughter were all a big part of the "experience". If you're having trouble sleeping you might try taking something that will knock you out and keep you that way through the night. Melatonin can help you sleep, and as far as I know, there are no side effects (you get it at the vitamin counter in any drug store). In time, the nightmares will most likely slow. If not, you might consider talking to a therapist about PTSD. I really feel for you about this. The nightmares can be awful. Huge hugs.

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Dec 20 - 7PM (Reply to #2)
needing2know
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I do take melatonin great

I do take melatonin great stuff lol but the nightmares are there and keep me up (for the last 4 or 5 days) they just all of a sudden showed up again. He never ever made comments to me about wanting me to die, or that he would ever kill me nothing like that was ever said to me. Thanks for the link i will read it.