Positve thinking

I still dwell on the past too much. It's as though I still read and read to prove to myself that I am right about what he is . I want to stop this now. I know what he is, I know what he did and I know it's time to move on properly. I want to start talking about the future and not the past now. It's time to let it all go .
So, I'm thinking about the good things that have come out of this and the things I can do now it's over:

* I can wake up on the weekends and make a cup of tea and go back to bed.
* I can wear what I want without being judged.
* I can leave the ironing , washing etc until I want to do it and I'm not called lazy anymore
* I can sing around the house without being called 'ridiculous'
* I can spend time with my kids without worrying he's going to get cross because I'm leaving him out( crazy freak)
* I have made new friends on here that I know will be friends for life ( he hated my ability to make friends)
* I can eat when I want, eat what I want
* I can talk for hours on the phone or Skype to my lovely friends
* I can go to bed and relax and not be scared of what he's going to do
* I can relax in the evenings and not get that awful feeling when his car pulls up on the drive
* I can smile properly again
* I can laugh again, you know the kind of laughing when your sides hurt
* I can breathe easily again
* I'm not scared anymore

It's over, I'm done, I see all of this for what it is. I see my lovely friends on here (Movingforwardnow, abusednomore, luckyescape, Janemarie, tootsgee) all moving on gradually and that makes me so happy . I know we all have a way to go but we are getting there.
As my name says - healing slowly but getting there .
Might need to change my name soon to 'nearlyhealednow'

Big hugs to all xxxxxxxx