Rough week...

I had a rough week!!! Drama at work, another hover from the ex-narc, it has been a trying week. AHHHH!!!! I need a soft spot in my life.

I am setting boundaries with the people in my life and it appears that it upsetting them. I am having a hard time because I feel like I’m not an easy person to get along with. It's still so new to me, to actually say I will not tolerate any abusive behavior direct toward me. In fact, it makes me feel like a complainer. Like who am I to set these boundaries. Does this make any sense?

It's been around 15 months since I had contact with the ex-nark. A few weeks ago I had received a letter from the him, where he asked me to contact him. It had no return address, so I didn't know it was from him. This week, another letter, the handwriting was different on envelope, but I suspected it might be from him. No return address, again he begs me to call him. This time it really is upsetting me. I angry, but at the same time I just want to cry over everything he did to me.

I'm tired.....I just want to hide from everyone. I know I just have to ride the emotions out and try to direct my energy elsewhere.

I'm trying....

ff5