Second anniversary

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#1 May 23 - 4AM
Warrior
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Second anniversary

Today is my second anniversary out.

Two years ago I've invited him to a drink and got out with the line "It's not you, it's me". It was some kind of self-joke. It was totally him. I was tired of feeling anxious, insecure, being lied to and cheated on. I though I deserved better and I told him I was not prepared to a comitted relationship (after 4 years...).

It has been a hard journey. As I always read that it takes 18-24 months to be cured, I've been waiting for my second anniversary, as the milestone that would save me for all the pain I felt.

As everybody here knows, there is no magic. There is pain, understanding, craving, rage, love, sadness and a wide range of feelings with highs and lows.

I don't consider myself cured. I've survived and have clarity on what happened to me. I don't think I will let someone abuse me again. But deep in my heart, I still feel a lot of pain.

Love,
Warrior

May 23 - 8AM
Fellforaclown
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Congratulations, Warrior!

May 23 - 8AM (Reply to #3)
Fellforaclown
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Also....

May 23 - 7AM
Janie53
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Warrior