So HARD!!
So HARD!!
okay ladies, Im on an antidepressants. Im in therapy. I know this relationship is toxic. I am not a stupid girl, have always been very popular, have a great job and two beautiful children. Live on my own with my kids.
A house I bought after I split from there father, I am only 32 years old. Have the life some single girls would love!
Just when I feel like im making progress, I slip back and end up spending time with him. The sex is AMAZING.
I actually think that is one of the reasons I stick around....but anyway, Im just trying to be honest here.
Im aware of the NO CONTACT and the START doing things for yourself. Its the anxiety that kills me, makes me feel so sick. Im sure I have mentioned this before in my other posts, but I have never really had anyone make me feel the way he does. More so in the beginning....obviously. I have always been the caretaker, (came from an alcoholic family)...pretty much never had the affection I get from him.
He is very affectionate, however can also say some pretty horrible things. Not so much mean things to me, but makes so many inappropriate comments about other girls, and totally plays games with my feelings constantly.
Its exhausting, but in actual fact, all I ever really known.
I feel like such an idiot/loser and want so bad to be "normal". There is tons of advice on here, and I read it daily. Somedays are better then others, today is just a bad one!
hmmm....
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NEVER!
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Ns go in waves
Leaving the Narcissist
You are doing much better
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oh wow! I would go through
They always make you feel sorry for them