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So I was just thinking about the N this morning and reading some of the posts on the forums and it made me think of something. I am only five days nc which pathetically is the longest I have made it in the eight months I have known the N. Looking back I knew there was something that wasn't right for months and had on several occasions attempted to break away. One time even sending him emails with excerpts from several websites about NPD and saying holy crap this is us! This last and hopefully final time I tried to tell him several times I wanted to say our goodbyes and he kept saying lets not blabber about things we don't mean since it was after a nasty devaluation and I think he figured I was just upset and wasn't taking me seriously.So I sent him a long text saying that the relationship was basically destroying me and it was time to let it go. He sent one back saying that he would miss me and he felt that I would not look back with as much love but that we were good buddies and also haha I knew you were going to dump me again but we will talk again unfortunately for both of us we just need a break. He also said he knew my mind wasn't "right" to be able to continue the relationship. Anywho although I felt drained and depressed and doubted myself about pretty much everything I still wanted to say goodbye over the phone with my real voice and not just my thumbs. I called and he wouldnt answer. I called probably five or six times in between each I would text and beg him to please pick up so we could at least say goodbye. He wouldnt. He said we didn't need a tearful goodbye and our relationship was much too deep and complex for that and that the real world is hard and not like in a movie and everything didn't always end packaged up nicely with a pretty bow.What's up with this? Then of course we continued to communicate for about another week and even after he said he knew it was time to end things and I wasn't "right" he acted like it NEVER happened. When I would bring it up and how he devalued me he told me he was sick of my Debbie Downer crap and it would be nice to have his friend back someday. WTH? Why do you lovely ladies suppose he wouldn't give me the closure of saying goodbye over the phone?