Thanksgiving pilgrimage

Hi everyone. I thought I'd share my thanksgiving experience with you all and hopefully give you some hope that things DO get better (slowly but surely...if we stay away from dating for at least 18 months, figure out what about ourselves makes us targetable, concentrate on ourselves and living the calm, gentle life, etc.) Anyway, I just returned from a week-long respite all by myself in the Carribean. I had a lot of trepidation about leaving my save haven (home, tv, blanket, etc.) but I made myself go in hopes I could find some peace in a beautiful setting. While I'm not completely whole again, I feel better than before i left. The sun and ocean breeze were extremely peaceful...and I just spent every day reading, thinking about life, etc. in a beach chair or a hammock. At first, I felt sad about being there all alone, but then I embraced it. There were plenty of people around me and I even made a few new friends at the resort. It took a lot for me to talk to people openly, but once I did, I saw the good in them and it helped to restore my faith in the goodness of people. Of course, there were a few goofballs looking for a hook-up, but I politely declined and focused on my recovery.

In a nutshell, it felt good to stick my big toe back into life and abandon convention (travel by myself)...and just focus on me. I hope everyone had a peaceful Thanksgiving.