for those of you that are scared to go nc

I was in your shoes last week. i remember when barbara was here she would say "nc! block him" and i just remember thinking "how can she yell at me like that? she doesnt know how hard it is!" well let me tell you "block him!" just try it. you can always reverse it. i blocked him last week and it instantly felt like a huge weight had been lifted. i wasnt looking at my phone for a text from him, i wasnt waiting for him to contact me, and at the end of the day when i heard nothing i didnt know if he tried to contact me or not. he could have been driving himself crazy all day! and to prove my point, today i unblocked him for one minute. the second i did it i thought i was gonna have a panic attack. i kept staring at my phone and kept thinking "what if he texts me? what do i say?" so i immediatley blocled him again and then i felt better and went about my day. so my point to this ramble is just try to block him for a day and see how it feels you can always reverse it. but you might find that you like the piece of mind! good luck everyone!