Tough Process
Tough Process
I am doing really well, but have to honest that he still consumes too many of my thoughts and I still wonder where he is and what he is doing. It's only been since March that I haven't seen him, and I only just went no contact a couple of weeks ago. It's been a tough process.
I'm sitting outside yesterday enjoying the beautiful weather and feeling really strong and happy. Then I get a text from him that says "I think about you all the time. I hope you are doing well." Pow.
Although I didn't react, my insides were turned upside down. I spent hours trying to read too much into a stupid text. Then I remembered all the crumbs, and the terrible things he put me through, and that I was just in his circle of contacts….hell, he probably sent that same text to multiple people.
I'm better today and very proud of myself for not caving and not letting the madness start all over again. On the other hand, I do still think about him…what he's doing and where he might be. I'll get there….it's just hard when he was my habit for a very long time.
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Journey on...
Passing along the reality goggles...
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It is a tough process, but
FG, Willow is right. It is a